What to write????

This is my second day on the looong weekend… but as much as I hate to admit it I’m bored.. there’s nothing interesting on tv.. no tickets available for tzp(taare zameen par.. fyi).. n i have no books to read.. so i thought i’ll do some browsing.. half an hour into that n i got bored of tht too .. 😦 .. i’ve had 6 hours of sleep during daytime y’day.. im bored to sleep as well.. yeah!!! bored to sleep.. the weather is no means conducive to go out.. so even that option is out.. so im stuck with this option.. of writing some crap in my blog.. when i have nothing intelligent to say.. so.. i will write about some one i dearly love.. but is no more.. something that was im my mind for a loong time. but never had the guts to spill it out..

Chitti .. my beautiful sis.. who chose to walk away from the world.. an year and half ago.. we both r born in the same month .. an year and two days apart.. from child hood.. we were alway treated like siamese twins. n we beahved that way .. stciking with each other every time we were around each other.. but as time passed . we realised how different we were fro each other.. she was the hot headed, volatile and dynamic person.. n i was the calm natured, balanced and obedient person.. naturally i was the good gal in he family.. watever the family percieved us as we were still on good terms.. enjoying the times that we spent with each other.. then. i did something to blow it up… though we patched up later.. it was never the same.. n both of us knew we were putting on an act.. we spent very li’l time with each other.. n completely lost track of each other’s private lives… i dint try to reach out and bridge the gap thinking she had a good circle of friends and does not need me.. maybe she felt the same .. i will never know.. and on one wednesday.. wen i came back from the office and held a cup of coffee in my hands.. we got the news that changed my life completely… first time death as an eternal loss became a reality.. n im left craving for the person i ran away from when she was alive .. was with us…

bottom line of the whole story is that in today’s busy world we dont stop n care for the ppl wen they really need it.. now wen im prepared to shower all my love on her.. she’s not there.. wen i feel like sharing something wid her.. i have to talk to a photo.. n one who has not gone through this will never ever understand the enormity of this pain.. so if u happen read this.. do remember.. the ppl in ur life also come with an end date.. and after that they are gone.. so care for them when they are with u… otherwise u will also end up talking to a photo..

in all ur eccentricities and madness was a beautiful heart.. that loved and cared.. in all the paths in front of u..
u chose to walk the path of death…

in all my life have never met a person like u …
may ur soul always rest in peace..

love,
Ranju

Advertisements